Hello dear readers!
I apologize for my absence. Life got very stressful for a while. In March, my career underwent some much needed changes; just not all of the changes I was hoping for. I am working part time with new clients. I do feel less stress and responsibility on my shoulders. However, if I haven't mentioned this before (although, I seem to remember doing so), my career ambition at this point in my life is to use my psychic gifts in service to others. I am still allowing my fear of failure to stall my progress.
However, I did publish my website and join a spiritual/ healering marketplace. I also provided a voluntary reading for someone that I do not know and was able to provide validated messages. My spirit guides keep telling me to audition for a local psychic fair. My ego keeps getting in the way telling me that I'm not good enough.
I had also attempted pursing a position and job change. Neither of which have worked out. I keep getting the messages that I am not supposed to pursue that line of work. I am supposed to be of service to others as a medium. Bombing an interview really drove my self esteem into the mud. It's been 3 weeks since then (although it feels like a lifetime and then yesterday, at times). I felt like I was a shoe in: I had the right education and pieces of paper; it seemed like I had the right experience; but then I couldn't sell myself. I thought it was a possible dream job, but I guess my higher self knew it was not.
I am not exactly surprised that I'm afraid to audition for a psychic fair after failing to sell myself at a job interview. I've always had a hard time with rejection. Apparently, this is another lesson I have to learn/overcome. I've been told that I'm "very psychic" and that I have to just trust myself. Doing that voluntary reading showed me that for sure. However, the sitter was very talkative and helped to fill in the gaps. How can I be successful if I get a sitter like me? Someone who only gives the information asked for. Or worse? The skeptic who gives nothing. I will get a few images and not be able to give a 15+ minute reading. I was told by a successful medium that not all mediums get it right all of the time and the worst that will happen is I give a refund. So what am I worried about? Failure and Perfection.
Obviously these are all fears of failure. I was raised by a Capricorn mother. Failure wasn't received very well. Is it any wonder I have a hard time with it now? LOL
Thank you for reading,
Gypsy Cat
